Kelly Clarkson reveals ‘the greatest decision’ she made after divorcing ex-husband Brandon Blackstock

For the first time Kelly Clarkson is revealing just how unhappy she was following her divorce from ex-husband Brandon Blackstock.

The talk show host recently appeared on an episode of the podcast Las Culturistas where she discussed the intense emotions she felt in the aftermath of her divorce.

“I looked at my therapist and I just couldn’t stop sobbing, and I was like, ‘I actually had to cancel some of the other day because I couldn’t stop crying. I cannot do this,’ ” the 41-year-old recalled.

“I was on Lexapro for like, I think two months,” she said. “Because I was like, look I don’t want to be on it forever. I don’t want to be that person … Not that there’s anything wrong with that. I just have issues with it because of my own things from childhood.”

“I’ve been so against it – just ’cause the things I saw in my childhood,” she explained. “So against, like any kind of form of medication … I’m like, ‘No there’s gotta be a better way of like, talking to someone, figuring this out.’ … I don’t want to numb myself.”

But the American Idol alum said she put aside her pride and took the antidepressant because “my thing was, I just can’t smile anymore for America right now. I’m not happy and I need help.”

LOS ANGELES – JAN 12: Kelly Clarkson and Brandon Blackstock arrives for the 25th Annual Critics’ Choice Awards on January 12, 2020 in Santa Monica, CA

“And it was honest to God, the greatest decision ever. I wouldn’t have made it [without it].”

“I handled what I couldn’t handle then and now I have time and space and I took like the whole summer off … It was a really good lesson in like, you need to put your ego aside … Someone’s trying to help you. Listen.”

Kudos to Kelly Clarkson for going public with her decision to take an antidepressant. There is still so much stigma surrounding mental health and medication needed to handle it.

Hopefully after hearing Clarkson’s story at least one person will change their opinion about SSRIs.